I have not been so familiar with house shoes as I have been for these past seventeen days. It is impossible to walk barefoot across my kitchen without feeling unclean. The floor is sticky and gritty from the rolling, breathing rain. The water that spills from the Rio Pardo pours across the corduroy rows of the cornfield, flattens them, then churns the soil into runnels of muddy syrup.
It has been a creational rain, and I fear what it will bear. I fear the diseases that may live in that water, and I dread the chance of an unholy baptism should my children fall into it. I worry about the cholera it may bring, and the mosquitoes it will tempt.
We are worn by the blankness of this rain. It has been a cortina that clings to our windows, and it fills my days with worry. Each day fades into another, each with the same blankness and the same worry.
We play card games, and I sing them the childhood songs I only half remember, and I try to teach them my Spanish. If the rain stops, they will forget my language, and I will forget the songs I sung to them. There is a sadness to this that hurts me throughout, this forgetting of things that will one day drown us.
This night, and every night, we will wear our shoes to bed, and we will shield our eyes with our arms, and we will listen to the rain shout at us. And perhaps we will sleep. If the rain opens all our doors, it will already be too late for us to run.
I have not been so familiar with house shoes as I have been these past seventeen nights.